Depression

Depression is a persuasive condition.

A physical ghost, an illusion that hurts.

Some days, the only way out is up. One step, hold on tight, next step. Breath. Repeat. Progress only measured by small gains. You can wait for years of talk analysis and dubious insight. Or, hope for vibrating crystals to work, to re-align your disjointed past. But the older you become, 'why' matters less. Better to just change behavior, assign blame later, never is best.